rejuvenation

As the semester comes to a midpoint, I'm finding it more difficult to get myself to go to classes. It also doesn't help that the weather is getting colder and staying under my bed covers seems much more appealing than going outside to class.

When I'm in the photo lab for hours upon hours each night, I can't help but to be overwhelmed with frustration. Why didn't I just finished my Marketing major and be done with this place? Don't get me wrong, I'm loving Athens because it's my home away from home. It's my getaway from family and Atlanta; but the frustrations come knowing this is not my place. I don't belong here.

I'm too comfortable with familiarity. That's my problem. Though, I am very well capable of adapting to a new place and meeting new people, I choose not to. Why should I when everything is somewhat "settled?"

I remember when I was younger, before I knew how to swim, my dad attempted to toss me into the 10ft end of the pool. I fought and cried and of course won over my dad's playfulness, thus being saved from potentially drowning. Even now, I'm terrified of the deep end of the pool. Now, I feel like I need to toss myself into the deeper waters because I'll stay too comfortable in the shallower end. What I'm trying to say in the midst of this bad analogy is: I need to challenge myself instead of being complacent of where I am.

Give me something new.. please?

The last print of the night came out. Finally. Time to go eat.