nostalgic

I went to visit my grandmother today, and as always, she thought of various ways to keep me there for as long as possible. I didn't mind at all. In fact, I find myself walking away learning a life lesson or two each time I visit.

She's 92 years old with a big heart and big dreams. You would wonder what kind of dreams a 92 year old would have, but surprisingly, she does. In reality, she can't do much for herself anymore but she wants to see the rest of the family - sisters, cousins, nieces, nephews, son, daughter, grandchildren, great-grandchildren, etc. (we have a big family) - live their lives in joy. She talks about death every now and again; however, she wants nothing more than to see the growth of our family (both spiritually, emotionally, and in actual numbers!).

I looked at some of my childhood photos posted up on her cork board and realized that I'm no longer the little baby. The "baby" of the family is soon 23 years old. My eldest cousin is nearing his 40s and I now think, "man, I remember when my parents were that age."

The more I see my family, hang out with them, talk with them - especially my grandmother - the more I realize that life is a gift. Shoot, if I think the first 23 years of my life went by fast, I'll be in my 40s before I know it.

I remember not wanting kids during my early teen years, quite possibly because I was 1. young 2. the baby of the family 3. immature. Now, I find so much joy in taking care of kids. After 5+ years of babysitting and teaching, I've warmed up to the youngsters. I even found myself wanting more than the ideal one boy and one girl. Why? Well, I've seen the joy in my grandmother's eyes when she talks about her kids and even grandchildren; and honestly, I can't wait to truly experience that same joy. I've also been watching a drama, "You Are My Destiny", and seeing the parent's unconditional love for their children warms my heart.

I digress.


I can't help but to think that life is, indeed, short. There's so much I want to do. Now, I just wonder when will I be able to do everything on my list.